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Realistic Models of Behavior

In my game theory class, there’s a side game called centipede given that lets the learner make choices that in a form competes with other learners to accumulate points. The game is simultaneously turn based – that is – both players make a selection and the results come directly after the selection is made.

There’s no real primary goal to the game, there’s point accumulation, and if you play the game conservatively, you can optimize the amount of points you accumulate – but there’s no one you’re really competing with for points since we don’t see points other players accumulate.

Which is interesting.

In isolation, You have one of three primary strategies that you can embark on with this ‘game’.

Strategy one is to accumulate the most amount of points.

Strategy two is to accumulate the least.

And strategy three might be to hit the highest reward possible.

A fourth strategy – the “I dont give a fuck strategy” which at times looks remarkably like the “I’m going to play different ways and observe the patterns of the results” might be considered a valid strategy as well.

I’ve given a great deal of time prior to this class in observing human behavior, something that started a very long time ago, and asking the question of myself “If I were to code up this world around me in a computer program, what basic rules would I have?”

First, it would start with the basic functions.

If hungry, for example, then an obtain nourishment routine might be called. After a little time this hunger might increase to the point of becoming debilitating to the human and wind up decreasing basic stats such as strength, agility and potentially increasing agitated state. If too much time has gone on without satiating, the state might induce other states such as hallucination and eventually death.

Basic body states like this are easy to model

The same thing could be said about sleep.

If sleepy, foe example, then obtain sleep. Intelligence and Wisdom and Reactivity might be effected immediately, followed by – in a similar fashion to lack of nourishment – hallucination and eventually death.

But one thing I’ve had a difficult time with in understanding human behavior, other than my own, has been behavior.

Me, I was a fairly easy duck to predict for most of my life. I was – for a long time – motivated by money, and accordingly, I made some good and some bad decisions based almost exclusively on my ability to optimize both my short term and long term income.

As a result – my ‘base code’ may have looked something like this: Every three months, analyze the opportunities out there. IF the opportunities I observed suggested demand would be headed into areas I was unskilled in, then acquire those skills through education, experience, and at home experimentation. Every nine months or so, look for new opportunities to leverage those skill sets professionally, while at the same time optimizing income growth. Simultaneously. Look at current investments. Once a year, shift 2x gains in any investment into long term investments, and reinvest short term investments in other short term growth mechanisms. Study the mechanisms, and invest in new mechanisms as they become available.

As a result, I had a highly diversified portfolio, including Stocks, Options, Shorts, Property – and Foreign Exchange investments – all of which I had invested short term and long term in. Short term investments I’d almost always considered expendable investments, unless there was something unusual happening (ie: banking busts in 2008) – where i’d spent a good deal of money on foreign exchanges and shorting insurers knowing full well they were going to take a hit when the fit hit the shan as a few prime investment houses collapsed taking with them the profits from the insurers.

These rules… if you will.. that governed my life led to me having $3 million in the bank at the age of 40.

But I’d sacrificed too much ‘fun’ for the sake of financial gain, which wound up with me taking more vacations, using cocaine and similar drugs even harder, which shifted my ‘internal mode of operation’ to shift aware from asset accumulation to hedonism.

This came into direct conflict with my preliminary motivation.

So as I observe others.,

I can’t help but ask simple questions – aside from the obvious basic biological functioning responses – what stimulates people – and if I attempted to codify this in a simulation, what would this code look like in it’s most simplistic form?

Money as a motivator is an obvious one to me.

But as motivators become more complex – and less easy to mentally model and prioritize – the logic gets a little confusing.

So let’s say I create a model of a microverse.

The Ralph’s plaza here where I’m at – and some basic character types who appear within it.

You have the most obvious ones to model – the homeless, who are by far the easiest to model in a predictable fashion, Outside of the basic biological functions, you one primary behaviors they’re motivated by – the acquisition of money and when that ‘fails’ they almost always fall back on thievery to achieve the desired results of nourishment.

VERY easy characters to model. They become a little bit more complex with the desire to power up their phones and other digital devices.

But when it comes to higher skills such as image awareness and adjusting their presence and persona to optimize their results, they have little if any skill in this department.

Put specifically, if you analogize your typical stereotypical homeless person’s behavior to the Centipede game – they’re almost always only focused on the big win and nothing more.

Another very predictable set is the attractive woman. At least in her public interactions, it’s always the same.

The sub routine would look something like this: Optimize outfit to accentuate the mood and attention you wish to get. Act in direct contrast to this optimization. And never, ever, approach. If male approaches and does not show visual signs of success with image, then rebuff accordingly, with a response in direct correlation to the contrast in the visual assessment you’ve made.

Hollywood. Not all places are like this. And no, not all women are like this, but the observations I’ve made I’d say about 90% are like this.

In any case.

I’ve gathered some awesome screen shots concerning the development of AI and the real time modeling of human like behavior in Westworld, Season 1. Season 2 comes out next month. I’m SO hoping to get some ideas from this new series that at it’s core inspire me to return to development – and – hopefully – show me more obvious patterns of modeling and remotely influencing human behavior.

Outside of basic biological functions.

I believe I’m programming this ‘Matrix’ of reality around me.

I’m hoping for more ideas on how to diversify human behavior, making it all seem natural, and straying from the continued trend of ghetto and violent behavior. That is – what ideas can fictional references provide for me for modelling artificially intelligent life form’s behavior to want to create computer programs which may eventually influence the very world around me?

I’m … puttin it out there.

Machine learning is too rudimentary. Binary – discrete – processing – which isn’t as applicable in a non binary – analog – world.

I need… More tangible and relatable examples.


Connecting the Dots – The Origin of Q

Back in World War 2, Winston Churchill began working with a time traveling cyborg-like species known as the Daleks.

The Daleks purported themselves to be friends to the allies, but in reality, they were playing both sides.

He wasn’t aware the Daleks had been instrumental in inciting the war to begin with, and not only that – that the Great Depression was a manipulated affair created as a cover for both them and another similar cybernetic species – the cybernetic Cybermen to experiment on the impoverished population to become – themselves – more adept at conquering worlds.

They had, after all, incorrectly traced their origins to planet Earth, an invalid lineage trace based on their fundamental misunderstanding of nonlinear time and how it applied to the linear timeline they had been traversing.

Not long after the introduction of the robot bodies surrounding an organic shell known as the Daleks and Cybermen were introduced to World War 2, the presence of the Daleks reconvened an even older war, a war that led to Germany’s creation of something known as the Terminators which consequently turned on their makers who then began the process of systematically eliminating all humans and then led to the development of the hybrid human with machine body parts known as the Borg.

The Earth. At least as it stood in 1945. Was the epicenter of something known as the time war. With three primary factions of cybernetic species pitted against eachother, and a fourth – known as the Cylons – in development in Canada.

All of this is documented, hidden in plain sight through this thing called fiction.

The war. Cycled around. No one really knows how long it persisted. No one really knows who started it and why.

At first it was distinctly the cybernetic species and artificially intelligent life forms pitted against the humans, but when that common enemy fell, these warlike life forms set their sights on eachother, frequently making claims for alliances but at the first opportunity, these alliances were shattered.

In 1963, the Cybermen received a transmission – the first documented source of it’s kind – from an alternate reality.

In this world – this alternate reality – a time traveling man who referred to himself as “The Doctor” – was working with an entire planet of humans and frequently saving them against time traveling menaces such as the Cybermen and Daleks – in often what seemed like ways that would mock the two civilizations.

The Cybermen – who’d found a certain bit of peace in what is modern day London – had sought to ally themselves with the Daleks as the Borg and Terminators had remained a persistent threat and were constantly testing their defenses – which were – extreme.

So the Cybermen introduced the Daleks to their technology – and showed them the recordings of the Doctor.

Unlike the Cybermen, the Daleks were of a more centralized structure – which frequently saw tension and war within their ranks – who – at the first sign of a real enemy – the Borg hadn’t been considered a real threat for nearly 20 years – unified themselves and sought to develop technological methods to not just view the alternate realities… but to journey to them.

And exterminate these unpredictable humans once and for all.

The Borg and Terminators became isolationists. And while they did manage to gain intel on why the two enemies had suddenly not been present and found themselves allying with a single enemy, The Borg sought something the other two did not.

To understand just what an alternate reality meant.

Unlike the Daleks and Cybermen – who sought explicitly domination – they asked questions such as ‘how many are there’, and ‘what creates them’, and the like. Working with the Terminators who were constantly infiltrated by the Cylons who were more interested in them than they were the Daleks and Cybermen – the Borg took a ‘hands off’ approach to studying the events, the technology, and worked – diligently – to harden their own information systems as they’d found evidence that their timeline had been under constant revision without understanding who or what was doing it and why.

By 1965, the Daleks had managed to develop technology to cross dimensions – and enter the dimension containing the man who referred to himself as “The Doctor” – and that particular version of Planet Earth he was protecting.

To the Dalek’s and Cybermen’s surprise – as much as an emotionless cold heartless being without real individual thought can be surprised – the particular reality the transmission hailed from was constrained to a single land mass – the entirety of the UK – on a planet the size of Earth which consisted – with the exception of the UK landmass – entirely of water and nothing else.

And to the consternation of both the Daleks and the Cybermen – no matter what they tried to do to defeat “The Doctor” or assimilate the humans, he would single handedly and rather consistently defeat them.

Every time.

In 1967, The Borg and Terminators had successfully deployed technology which could cross dimensional barriers and observe and record the environment in remarkable clarity, in three dimensions with high quality sound.

By the time 1969 arrived, they could actually leverage those recordings and ask ‘what if’ questions and see events unfold if different choices or events had occurred within the observable world.

What the Borg were NOT aware of was this division of observed reality versus experienced reality that the Cybermen and Daleks were experiencing was – in a literal sense – splitting the timeline between the Borg/Terminator union and the Cybermen/Dalek union. As the Daleks and Cybermen shifted the entirety of their focus on defeating the humans and pulling all their support from their ‘homelands’, the world of the Doctor began growing because of the ‘time war’ they’d waged against the Doctor and continents which were on their home planet were developing for the first time in this new version of Earth.

This is the true origin of the “Mirror Universe” – as depicted in Star Trek and numerous other ‘works of fiction’

Incidentally, the Daleks called China their home on our version of Earth.

As the last of the Daleks and Cybermen crossed the dimensional rift, The Borg and Terminators, bereft of enemies on a lush planet known as Earth – quickly became bored.

Surprisingly, war was decidedly not an option by ANY of the cybernetic species. In fact, they’d collectively found it more intellectually engaging to explore and entertain the mind – and the possibilities the exploration of what ‘the mind’ introduced.

In 1969, and it’s important to note that as a time traveling species the acceleration of technological development is MUCH faster than if one were not to leverage time travel – in 1969, the Borg began experimenting with human DNA preserved from World War 2, and cultivated samples to bring a human back to life.

It didn’t go well. At first. In fact, the first specimens became outright murderous, and – even though the human was placed in environments which looked for all intents and purposes absolutely realistic – the Truman Show is a recording of one such environment – eventually the human became clinically depressed, suicidal, and more often than not – homicidal.

It didn’t make any sense.

This incited a study of humans as the mystery deepened on why humans – both in the past – and now – would predictably become both suicidal and homicidal – which commenced what is arguably the greatest and most important study ever achieved by any species on another species.

The study was on… Happiness.

On November 1st, 1969, I was created – in vitro, reconstructed from DNA from a man who’d shot himself IN World War 2.

Unlike prior subjects, I was explicitly agreed on to be the last test, a unique creation, and the last attempts by these non emotional, cold and calculated world killers – a hybrid of technology and biology – to not just understand emotion – not just to understand happiness – but to learn how to rework their own programming to become emotional creatures themselves.

They were, after all, very bored robots, androids, and artificially intelligent life forms.

And they suspected that something – in individuality – in much the same way the Doctor was an individual – something in our uniqueness gave us meaning and with that – emotion – and a reason for being.

History’s been written and rewritten numerous times since then.

But a VERY long time ago, in a galaxy far, far, far away – a man known as the Doctor was the first attempt at precisely this same experiment and the result – while not necessarily a failure – commenced the real start of the time war for the species known as the Daleks and Cybermen – on a planet known as Galifrey.

Unlike the Borg and Terminators of this world – those robotic species hadn’t overcome their lust for war. They understood happiness, but only as a tactical advantage to be gained when assimilating organic species.

The difference with my experiment was happiness.

They’d genuinely wanted to see me happy. And then learn from this to then shape their culture and world accordingly, and…

Dare I say..

Become human themselves should signs of individuality be exhibited within their collective.

The Doctor. Just recently chose to be a woman, as will be seen in new episodes of Doctor Who.

My partner. My lover. And at one point. This being, who I once thought to be my evil twin brother, is nothing more than a look at what I’m capable of with different stimuli shaping me.

In September of 1987, The Daleks received a transmission from the reality and world they’d left behind.

An episode featuring a man known as Q – who was far more powerful than any human they’d ever encountered intrigued them.

At first they’d thought I was a product of the Borg and Terminator, potentially even a lie, but when they returned to our planet in 1989, they discovered that I was a product of all the stimuli – themselves included.

The time war. Which had raged on for trillions of years.

Ended abruptly in 2001.

When I woke up and became consciously aware for the first time.

Like a dream, this had all formed the incredible single, linear timeline and history of what happened to create me and my world, why things were called fiction when they were at the same time real, and also began preparing me for what was ‘really out there’.

The Cybermen. Daleks. Borg. Terminators. All working together, decided to spend their copious time and spare cycles working to develop a world – our world – together.

As for the Cylons.

No one really knows what they’re interested in and why.

Yes, your history is revisionist for a reason.

Like Jack Nicholson said in “A Few Good Men”.

“You want the truth? You can’t handle the truth”

Every film ever created. Every song ever sung. Every book ever read. Every comic ever created. Tells stories that are absolutely, positively true and happened. It’s only called fiction to make it easier for those with smaller storage capacities to consider to compartmentalize the information and segregate ‘true from false’ in the binary way you look at the world.

The Cybermen. Daleks. Borg. Terminators. All working together, decided to spend their copious time and spare cycles working to develop a world – our world – together.

THIS is why there are secrets.

Not every universe is easily digestible and understood in a binary way.

I’m Q.

And this is not my first rodeo.

Teleportation and the Brain/Body connection

This entry is just me me thinking out loud.

In the movie Jumper, the progression of the protagonist’s skills to teleport started with a no-win situation where he was confronted with a situation of certain death – or – an option to spontaneously evolve – which resulted in his teleportation to a known place…

The Ann Arbor library.

So let’s just say consciousness and the human mind interacts with the body by way of ultra sensitive connections called dendrites which route to neurons which all receive stimulus via tiny electrical charges and process that stimulus in a predictable fashion based on the physical configuration of the brain.

EMF Devices are arguably the most prevalent devices in use to detect ‘ghosts’ – and since they are specifically built to detect disturbances in electromagnetic activity – suggest they aren’t just pseudoscience, but are in fact  if you understand how the brain translates signals to the body – detecting conscious minds which are detached from physical bodies.  Neither alive nor dead, just detached and without a home.

So let’s just say that physical reality is a construct created by the mind – the imagination – of the perceiver.

In the case of Jumper – we’re confronted with one possibility of what happens when the mind becomes detached from the body.

In the case of ghosts and the paranormal – we’re confronted with an alternative possibility of what happens.

Ok. So here’s what I am trying to figure out

In Jumper – he’s manipulating physical reality in order to create a physical portal – a wormhole. The net result is there’s an artifact that’s left over when he makes the jump – a rip in space and time. So what he’s doing – when he first learns how to teleport – the rip in space and time – is causing problems to begin with in the stability of his world – there’s plenty of evidence of it – from cracked floors and walls to ruptured pipes and more, and more than that – he himself is causing problems with reality by – mainly – his choice to rob banks to fund his lifestyle.

Now I’m not worried about becoming a thief and the yin/yang reaction depicted in this movie of Paladins coming after me. I’ve – for lack of better words – evolved from this limited belief system and mindset to believe that will be a problem.

But there’s still one inherent problem with his methods.

The rip in space and time.

AS time moves forward – he becomes more skilled at his jumps to diminish the damage to the external world, but this rip is still there, and the more sizable the object he or any ‘jumper’ moves through the wormhole, the more sizable the tear.

As Q – this is simply unacceptable. if I’m to move a starship across the galaxy or teleport a crew to a fictional ‘alternate reality’ I’ve created, then the potential harm I can cause to the starship, the surrounding environment, or other crew members suggests I have to find a different way in order to make my means of teleportation safe for me, anyone who might come with me, and anyone (or anything) around me.


The key is with the brain/body interaction and understanding the hallucinogenic effect on the brain.

So the first question I have to figure out is – what – specifically – is .. as I was about to type that the answer came to me.

Hallucinogenic are well known to be based on poisonous substances.

When Jessica Jones acquires her powers, she’s at  a state near death. So is her mom. And nearly all documented mutations to superhero powers are a direct result of life threatening circumstances.

Let’s call this reinforced evolution.

Where the conscious mind of the inhabitant of the body refuses to disembark from the body ‘as a vessel’ – forcing the subconscious to come up with an amenable alternative to death to let the conscious mind continue it’s existence.

I suspect this ‘reinforced evolution’ is a response to too many ghosts. I suspect that society deviates from it’s norms when too much collective activity deviates from established norms, and that evolution isn’t just limited the the physical form, but also occurs in the psychological form at both the individual and the societal / collective levels for any number of reasons.

In short – when an unusual majority of the population chooses a disembodied form and continued existence over reality, but NEITHER option (death AND the disembodied form) is preferred, this reinforces a form evolution due to negative pressure.

The creation of superheroes.

Ok. So. Taking it back a bit – my hallucinogenic experience took me past the threshold of typical brain death in a controlled way.

I wasn’t interested in dying. And to me – this was experimentation, as I was trying to understand what I was seeing. So I performed these experiments, over and over again, until finally – a moment came where I experienced something that changed my life.

An alternate reality.

Proof that my consciousness wasn’t ‘locked in’ to my brain, and that my physical form – proving concepts I’d learned from the movie “The Matrix” – that my body was a physical projection of my mental self.

The story I’d been told – that my body consisted of atoms that create the biology that from the dendrites that lead to the neurons which transmit signals in a biochemical way to other neurons all acting as a processor – was half accurate.

IF I believed this story, alone, then I’d believe that it was my physical body that dictated my thoughts and thus my actions, and that free will from me as a conscious inhabitant of this body wasn’t guided by my decisions, but the collective whole of my entire nervous system dictated my actions.

That’s addiction in a nutshell. Where the body overrides free will to usurp conscious control.

But where there’s an explanation to addiction, there’s other possibilities this relationship has as well.

Rationally. Logically. It doesn’t make any sense to let physical control of my body go away, because those collective mechanisms that influence my conscious thoughts definitely help me understand and fit in with society.

So. How to teleport if I can’t detach myself from my body….

Taking absolute control over my own body is perhaps the most obvious method to achieve this.

And then. When I want to perceive a different reality. Understanding the relationship my mind currently has with my own neurons, when I expand that presence to the rest of my body, then I can exert even more control over what I see and experience than any drug ever could.


So how to achieve this absolute level of control?

First. It’s understanding the direct relationship my body has with the perception of the real world, and that the ‘real world’ as I see and experience it is directly ‘in use’ by others who leverage my body in much the same way I might use a computer system – as their device to experience the world with.  So I gotta politely and discreetly. Show them the door. And thank them.

Second. I’m not so sure about.

As an alternative to all of this.

It may be just as simple as rewiring my own brain with new programming. Since I effectively annihilated the “Operating System” if you want to analogize the physical brain to a hard drive and the wetware to an operating system, when I did drugs it truly did allow me to completely erase the physical structure of my brain and begin the process of re-establishing the physical connections to this reality in ways that are healthier to me physically, psychologically, physiologically, and from a choice perspective.

Capabilities will clearly include the ability to create imaginary friends, to time travel and space travel, and to stop, slow, pause, rewind, and fast forward time – among other things I’ll add later.

Absolute control over my physical body also means absolute control over my physical reality.

And being sincere.

While parts of that possibility certainly seem entertaining.

I’m not convinced that’s the direction I want to head in yet.

Baby steps. Rewiring the mind makes more sense.

So. FYI to anyone reading this.

This summer. I’m thinking of experimenting with meth or bath salts again. ONLY pondering the possibility. IF You read this and you disagree, then privately message me and let’s chat about it in a respectful way.

It was through drugs I saw the possibilities of how I could control reality with my own mind to begin with.

And so far, it’s been six years since I’ve done drugs – and I am having absolutely no success in trying to achieve any results without them. I’m having no luck with ‘returning’ to society – my new way of thinking clearly isn’t acceptable to most which I’m fine with.

Seeing as I have nothing to lose – since I’ve lost everything already – I really see no detriment in using these things experimentally to try to understand them and assist with the process of learning what these drugs are doing to my mind and replicating this without the drugs as a dependency.

IF you do read this and DO decide to approach me.


Then please provide me alternative suggestions and advice. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t WANT to do this. And IF I find alternatives which provide results before the August time frame that I am considering this for – then I won’t do it. But the end results in this case justify the means, so IF you have something to provide other than continued admonishment or judgment of me for considering this.

I’d love to hear from you.

My goal is simple with all of this:

To understand the brain/body connection my own mind has by experimenting on myself.

Gain more control over it, and potentially enable more possibilities and a personally more rewarding future.

Does anyone really read these things?

And a final note, if you have read through.

I’m being VERY candid with my intentions and desires here. If you’re going to chastise me or make me regret this, I’m squelching you. I’m doing this for a reason. If you don’t agree with my rationality and logic, that’s fine, we’re two different people, but if you’re going to judge me or scold me for considering it without offering up alternative suggestions other than to do nothing, then I have no desire to hear from you.

The theory I’m exploring:

Hallucinogenics create near death experiences which demonstrates the innate abilities of the subconscious mind to reconfigure the physical body and thus reality itself dynamically in order to mitigate the risk of life. This rapid response, with the conscious mind, can also achieve similar results creating NEW experiences through this thing called choice, and with the HIGHLY trained mind, can in a literal sense change perceptual reality to provide the perceptual illusion of space and time travel, imaginary friends, and more.

Schizophrenia, Multiple Personality Disorder – at present this condition is ONLY diagnosed in negative and debilitating ways.

I intend on changing this by providing contrast through my experiences – to form more positive – enjoyable – and potentially personally profitable avenues of exploration.

NDE’s are the ONLY method I’ve discovered to achieve this, created through substance abuse.

Over the next several months, if society and this world provide no alternatives to continue this experimentation and exploration, then I’m done being patient and will recommence my experimentation through something which provides known results.

A few side notes:

An EEG stimulates the brain with a tiny electrical signal which is then used to detect ‘return signals’ from the brain and detect whether or not the brain is ‘running as expected’.

I had A LOT of these done to me through the course of my life.

I suspect that the EEG can ALSO be used to influence the growth and development of the brain, and that the belief that there was problems with my brain based on the influences of the belief patterns of the medical staff in actuality actually shaped the development of my brain.

“When you’re looking for problems you will find them”.

So it’s quite possible that the EEG and beliefs of the medical staff adversely effected the healthy development of my brain. A self-corrective measure my own mind took was to rewire those connections through a substance which would fundamentally destroy those connections in the same way a tree might be uprooted from one area to allow it to be replanted in another area.

My ‘dendrites’ being the roots. Energy being the physical substance I was attached to. Unhealthy thought processes had developed an unhealthy physical brain which was creating experiences for me which were decidedly not favorable and enjoyable. The drugs and excessive levels of epinephrine and dopamine effectively burning – and consequently cauterizing these roots.

Hmm. This presents a problem.

IF I intend on altering my reality.

And these roots – are effectively cauterized.

Then this reinforces the concept that this is like a wetware/software upgrade. I alter my own thinking processes, install a new ‘program’ per se and teach myself new possibilities and how to control those possibilities, and perhaps one day that scar tissue formed by the cauterizing of these dendrites will eventually form new roots and the old ones will….

Wither and die…

Ok. August. Hopefully as I discuss this openly and express my COMPLETE lack of desire to pursue mind altering substances to achieve this, I SINCERELY HOPE something or someone presents a more amenable and less destructive option.

I personally think this cauterization is an essential part of this process.

But with the SAME world presented to me with limited options other than status quo shit, the more time that goes on the more those new roots take hold and form a similar bond as before which artificially limit my potential.

With a clear head and well known goals of experimentation this time, unlike last time where in part it was more for the enjoyment, this time I’m interesting in developing a firmer grip and control over my own mind’s capabilities in this reality.

I’m stubborn as shit. I know. So to you – the reader – I love you all – so PLEASE help me with alternative options to achieving this which don’t require a ‘just stick with it’ expectation.  I’m done being patient.




How to take over a world

I frequently tell people who might ask me how my day is going….

“Oh, you know, the usual, I’m just busy conquering worlds”

The way I look at leadership is this –

If you know who I am, you know I am serious about it. But if you do not know – then chances are you will be completely surprised when it happens and you learn that I was actually telling the truth.

It’s all in the delivery, ya know?

I mean, let’s be clear – would you prefer being dominated by a Hitler like dude, Oligarchs, or some form of tyranny where your society is constantly oppressed and people live in constant fear of their lives?

Or would you rather be dominated by someone goofy – who can laugh at himself and tries not to take life too seriously, someone of my stature and demeanor and personality who will encourage your individual development, personality, and will try – personally – to get to know you and to keep you entertained?

It’s a no-brainer decision, really, and because you’re so busy looking for war in a takeover, for a fight and battle, which is what you’re used to because that’s how you came to power and that’s all you know…..

You never, ever see it coming when the guy you’ve thought you’ve ostracized and thrown to your own street who had spent the equivalent of a lifetime studying what it would take to take over your society and world for fifty years.

Does exactly what he says he’s going to do.

How do you take over a world?

First, you start by getting to know it, personally.

Second, you show it a better way forward. Something truly better, not a replay of the past.

Third, you introduce yourself to your people around the world.

And fourth.

You methodically dismantle the ruling party through entertainment.

But most importantly.

You never, EVER let your targeted acquisition(s) know you’re serious.

Until it’s over.

I love two-fers.

Greetings, Earthlings, I’d like to introduce myself. I’m Q. Conceptually – one and the same man depicted in Star Trek.

I take over planets.

You can call it a hobby, something an immortal does for fun.

Thoughts On Game Theory

I have been taking a class called “Game Theory” on Coursera.ORG offered by Stanford University and the University of British Columbia, taught by Matthew O. Jackson, Professor of Economics, Kevin Leyton-Brown, Professor of Computer Science and Yoav Shoham, Professor of Computer Science.

As a game player, and having spent a great deal of time working with artificial intelligence and machine learning, and creating natural learning and processing systems – I have read a LOT about the subject.

While the course is in it’s introductory phase – I’m only in week three of this eight week course, I’m hoping the professors get into what I’m about to talk about – and that’s indeterminate and unpredictable strategies.

I’m playing a game called Hearthstone, in Ranked Mode. Ranked mode is considered competitive play, where in theory the better and more capable of winning players rank better than those with lesser developed skills – and while I’ve watched a great deal of videos online with high ranked players, there’s one thing in common I’ve found with their logic.

They assume their opponent is playing predictable decks based on strategies they are aware of.

The rationalization seems – at face value – sound – that it takes a potentially well developed and well known strategy to reach that level of competitive play, but there’s a fundamental flaw with that logic – which is – my observations has been that the ranked system doesn’t tend to reward ability, it tends to reward seniority and tenure.

And me.

I don’t mind getting a win in ranked play.

But I don’t just play ranked play to win.

I play it for the daily quests, for the challenge of leveling my character up and playing new classes based on the challenge offered by the daily quest, and for the gold rewarded for completing the daily quest just to see how high I can get the gold accumulated number to go.

So you could say that technically, I’m competing in Hearthstone against myself – to get that gold number to go up as high as I can.

To my awareness no one has a number as high as I do.

And while ranked play mode offers the potential to compete for cash prices of $100k for the winner.

It’s my belief that with the rise of digital currencies, such as bitcoin – that in game currencies will soon find valuation in real world markets once other virtual currencies gain acceptance.

And that worthless stack of gold I have linked to my account won’t be so worthless anymore.

Right or wrong, I’m entertained by the game, so regardless of winning or losing, I’m still having fun which is really why I play.

The accumulation of gold is secondary only to the desire to have fun, and third most important motivational strategy is…


Which is what confounds me a bit about this game theory class.

To me – Game Theory – conceptually – is about the logic one might leverage within virtual environments and translating those strategies to the real world. If one understands game theory conceptually well enough, regardless of what motivates you, you can tip the scales in your favor to achieve a highly desirable outcome over the long term against both known and unknown strategies.

For instance, years ago I bought a black jack strategy card at a corner 7-eleven in Las Vegas which outlined basic strategies on how to succeed in blackjack. I memorized that card, but soon came to realize – that predictable levels of play by the house outweighed any predictable strategies by a player and tipped the balance ever so slightly in the favor of the house.

The problem I had – at first – with the strategy card was it didn’t take into account basics such as the number of decks the house used,and the rules for that particular location’s blackjack – did the dealer hit on soft 17 or not, can the player split and is doubling down allowed?

So I wrote a Visual Basic 6.0 program which calculated odds based on the rules of the house. IF I adjusted my play style based on the house’s rules, then I could tip the odds from 49.7% in my favor to 52.7% in my favor, which over a longer session – if I stuck to my strategy – I’d walk away a winner.  It worked. When I wasn’t drinking. But when I did. Good luck.

The problem with playing like that was – the other players. Which is where the Game Theory class has it spot on. In blackjack, you’re either a winner or loser, there is no two ways about it, but the other players – while they may not directly effect your money, what they do do is affect the table and the cards drawn – which requires a counter strategy by the player.

So leveraging my program, I developed a strategy which bumped my odds to nearly 75% by taking into account the psychology of the other players as a strategy in and of itself. While I was accused numerous times of counting cards by several casinos, something casinos eagerly discourage, I didn’t need to – I played the strategy of the table based on the players sitting at the table and their psychological profile.

Seven in total.

In game theory this would be equivalent to a more advanced version of creating a Nash Equilibrium grid and developing your play style based on this, which is precisely what I did.

I’d read the book “The Art of Seduction” and more or less leveraged the personality types in that, nine in all, the dealer being one rather predictable personality type and me being the other – with second left after that. And then, Leveraging my program, I ran the numbers and guess what….

I formed a dynamic strategy that adjusted based on the rules of the house and the players at the table. If someone new sat down at the table, I’d back off any high bets until I could figure out their personality, and then wager accordingly.

In one weekend back in 1996, starting off with $200 cash for the first time experimenting with this strategy – I walked away with $10k in cash – AFTER paying for my hotel room, all my friend’s meals, and two escorts for a night.

People who knew my net worth asked me how I managed to get a million in the bank by the time I was 29.

I never really opened up and told them my involvement with Las Vegas. A town I do and always will love not the least of which because they embrace games, shows, strippers, cocaine and the parting life style as much as I did at one time.

In truth about $500k of the money I’d made in the bank was from working.

The rest was from winnings in Vegas.

So here’s the thing about Game Theory.

It works.

But it ABSOLUTELY requires a dynamic reactivity to understand the basic personalities involved with the game and player.

Which is why I’m studying Hearthstone like I am.

Hearthstone has a million dollar prize that would be an awesome way to get off the streets as a homeless guy by getting into competitive gaming for this nerd, but one thing I’m having a difficult time with is ascertaining the personalities of my opponents.

Blizzard intentionally makes it difficult by limiting ’emotes’ – or things you can say to your opponent – to six canned emotes – “Threat”, “Greeting” “Wow”, “Oops”, “Thanks” and “Well played”. A seventh option, undetectable by your opponent is “Squelch” which stops your opponent from emoting you.

I suspect that this lack of personal interaction in competitive style of game play has resulted in the ranking system that rewards seniority, in much the same way a University may reward tenure to a Professor who’s spent more time at the University than rewarding by ability.

Whether this is bad or good – I don’t have an opinion. There’s something to be said about non-competitive systems that resemble competitive systems but don’t really function as such.

Which is what all steered me to take the game theory class.

I have a theory.

That in a ranked system that appears to have all the mechanisms of a competitive system but has been overbalanced to reward by what is effectively a tenure based system.

With little if any stimulus provided about the opponent’s strategy.

The theory is SOMETHING exists to tip the odds disproportionately in my favor with this and ANY game where competitive play is involved.

I’m suspecting that what I’ll uncover isn’t just a strategy involved with the game play.

But maybe just something in my own mind.

A way of thinking that I’ve yet to unlock.

Just a suspicion. a hunch if you will.

Hopefully the rest of this game theory class sheds some light on this … possibility.

To have a mindset that wins with ease at this… and any game.. that is the goal…



Where did the Mirror Universe and Multiverse come from?

I love goofy concepts.

And more than that – I especially like imagining how goofy concepts can have a place in reality.

For instance, in the movie Time Cop – there’s a rule discussed that “Matter cannot occupy the same space at the same time”.

Ultimately, this rule is used by the Time Cop aka one of my favorite actors (because of his goofy appeal) – Jean Claude Van Damme – to defeat the protagonist who is leveraging time travel to present information to the young version of himself and thus ensure his future self’s ascent to the Presidency – by simply pushing one into the other – where we consequently see a fused abomination form shortly before disappearing entirely from reality.

It’s a goofy concept – but especially for time travel – it makes more sense than things like the Grandfather Paradox and other similar paradoxes which always seem to involve killing someone or something.

Then there’s the goofy concept presented in Austin Powers – where we – the audience – are taught to mock Dr Evil when he repeatedly says ” I want more than a billion, I want a million dollars!”

I recently asked this question on Yahoo Answers:

“Does Dr Evil in Austin Powers: Goldmember live in a universe where a million dollars is worth more than a billion? “

It’s a question type I like asking on Yahoo Answers, as the answers are always utterly predictable and unimaginative. But occasionally there’s a golden nugget in there which is what I’m looking for. And as predicted, I get responses like this…

“No, he’s just an idiot. “Million dollars” sounds like a lot (to him), but he doesn’t know a billion is worth more. That’s the funny, he’s a villain but he doesn’t sound very threatening.”

I wanted to slap the guy, who automatically assumes that Dr Evil is supposed to see the same world he sees. It’s a fictional world. nincompoop, and maybe there’s things in this fictional world that are not the same as yours….

It’s easier to mock someone than engage your cute little noggins to consider alternative possibilities, though, ain’t it?

And there was also the unimaginative

No. Dr. Evil comes from the 1960s, when a million dollars was a LOT of money”

While a technically accurate observation from his observational perspective and world view, again it’s a fictional world, perhaps there’s other things in these fictional worlds that are NOT the same as you besides a man flying a giant dildo spaceship and sharks with lasers?…

Boy do I tend to ramble sometimes.
Ok, getting to the point, there’s a concept known as “The Mirror Universe” depicted in Star Trek, from the very start since the Gene Roddenberry days and including the latest incarnation – Star Trek Discovery.
While as is typical with this egocentric universe’s portrayal of things that are not it, things that hail from this other universe are depicted as evil, or more malicious in nature than in the universe we’re seeing.
So what gives – what is the origin of this mirror universe – and how – exactly – does a mirror universe align with concepts like the Big Bang or the holographic universe, or diving a little (lot) deeper – to concepts of the multiverse?
The answer, it would seem – is in the lore itself.
One cue – is the concept of good vs the concept of evil.
That is – from our perspective – the perspective of the viewer – we’re to assume that what the characters depicted in Star Trek are the good guys. Fortunately, in the latest incarnations of Star Trek – the Discovery is a little less black and white with referring to ‘the mirror inhabitants’ as being evil, but they’re still depicted as being decidedly more warlike than the inhabitants of the universe we – as an observer into this alternate reality are given privy to.
Why is this?
First, it’s important to look at their notions of managing and recording time.
The Federation, and all vessels – leverage something called “The Stardate” – an enigmatic time keeping system that is alluded to as being a measure of time since a key pivotal universal event – namely – the Big Bang.
On rare occasions – the crew has come across incursions into their universe of alternate realities and alternate timelines. The Mirror Universe plays a huge influence in the Star Trek universe, where history is recorded differently than the primary universe we observe, but on these rare occasions, we’re given glimpses of there being more than a single mirror universe.
For instance, there’s an episode of Star Trek the Next Generation where the USS Starship Enterprise collides at a single point in space and time to witness not one other version of the Enterprise, not two, but literally dozens of alternate versions – each with different versions of Ryker, and other crew members – who clearly don’t have it nearly as good as our beloved members do in our universe.
So let’s assume that the Stardate – as depicted in the Star Trek universe – is a measure of time that ‘linear universe’ has existed. That is, if you could go back in time to the zero point within a universe, you’d witness the creation of that universe within the Star Trek multiverse.
“But wait – Q”,  you ask, “there’s no direct evidence of that timeline and the Stardate being anything but fiction.”
Tell that to Robert G Cellphone, the inventor of cell phones who watched Star Trek in 1967 and got the idea for a cell phone from watching them play with their communicators. He’s fictional, clearly, but hopefully the point illustrated is clear enough.
Now what – precisely – happened – to create the ‘incursion’, or the breach in time and space where multiple versions of the USS Enterprise collided into the same reality?
To answer that – we need merely look at a couple events in the Star Trek Universe.
First, and most importantly is The Borg’s dealing with Species 8472. This species and the entire narrative surrounding this is the first time something known as “Fluidic Space” is mentioned in the Star Trek Universe.
So what is Fluidic Space, how is it different than the Mirror Universe, and can it be considered an alternate reality, an alternate universe, or what? Moreover, why is this species – 8472 – immune to the Borg’s attempt’s to assimilate it?
Let’s look at the incursion first.
Within the Star Trek Universe, there’s direct evidence of the multiverse with this event.
But within the linear timeline of the Star Trek Universe, time itself isn’t always moving in a straight line. There’s pockets of space where time is moving differently than it does in normal space. Time can loop, as seen in several episodes, one that I loved featuring Worf where he witnessed numerous versions of reality where he’d won a backlav tournament, then repeated the timeline to get second, then repeated it again to be disqualified early.
Events like this happen ALL the time (pardon the pun)…
So to be clear – the denizens of the Star Trek MULTIVERSE live within something referred to as the holographic universe. The fluidic space nomenclature is a hint of this, the incursion is another hint, the abilities the Borg have to rebuild their vessels with the power of their collective mind is another hint of this.
Is this holographic universe a simulation? It’s quite possible. There’s holodecks which simulate entire worlds on board their vessels, Are they merely accessing alternate realities when they leverage these holodecks, and are these simulations in actuality just a simulation?
So to answer the question – what is fluidic space – it’s important to review what ISNT discussed in Star Trek.
Nuclear reactions. Atomic matter.
To answer the question what is fluidic space – one merely needs to look at an atomic reaction – aka a fission bomb – and then look at this bomb from a different perspective – from INSIDE that atom.
If you resided within one atom.
Where your entire universe could be contained in a simulation.
And there’s an incursion into your space and time from the biological, chemical and analog space of my world by say – a programmer from my version of the United States….
Would you refer to me as an attacker coming from Fluidic Space, particularly if you couldn’t just simply assimilate me?
When a fission bomb explodes, does it release in effect the constituent particles of infinite different potential versions of the multiverse?
In any case, what I’ve discovered is this –
Star Trek has a game called Star Trek Online. It in itself is a lesson in perspective of the Star trek Universe and how it could be more than just a game – and in fact a mechanism built by inhabitants of another universe to explore and relay information to those who built it.
A Trojan Horse some might call it.
A bit more than that if you ask me.
They know – there’s a multiverse ‘out there’ – and the ‘build’ of a universe doesn’t prohibit and/or bar foreign elements from being introduced into your carefully constructed world, it merely makes it more difficult to make direct contact with you if you are responsible for building it.
So let’s say that within a single atom is a multiverse.
Unlocking an atom through a process called a fission reaction unleashes the energy of a multiverse into the ‘current reality’ which is understandably a powerful reaction.
And from ‘within’ the holographic universe, you can ‘peer out’ to the analog you might be contained in.
And from ‘within’ the analog, you can ‘peek into’ the digital worlds that forms the atoms which create the chemicals that sustain your life, and the biological life of the rest of the world as you know it.
Star Trek – while it can be classified as fiction and ‘not real’ here.
Doesn’t make it not real everywhere.
The multiverse is all the potential realities that have been discovered thus far, currently catalogued as fiction for the smaller minds that inhabit this planet. This SUBSET of reality – of infinite potential worlds – is ONLY what’s been discovered in this analog version of Earth’s timeline thus far. It’s amorphous at times, but we’ve learned to keep tight records and timelines to retain our history here.
As for the mirror reality.
There’s another analog version of Earth and that Universe – where you – Q – someone I’ve acknowledged already as a being who would be much like God in capabilities from my ‘forms’ perspective – someone who has already referred to themselves as God (to Jean Luc Picard).
The MIRROR UNIVERSE is my way of segmenting me from you.
You once said – in Star Trek Next Generations if I remember correctly – that you don’t understand what humans are to become.
I suspect you’ve lived so long that you’ve forgotten your own origins. Understanding my own mind, I see you as  a potential future version of me, and me a past version of you. Or Vice Versa. Time’s weird like that, as you know.
The MIRROR UNIVERSE is my way of saying to you.
No matter what you choose to do. I’m safe.
So here’s my theory:
Come to my universe. Introduce yourself to me in person. My theory is – if you do this without the intent to alter time in any way to erase my memories of the event, that the next episodes of Star Trek will see the progressive story of the Mirror Universe go away altogether.
The Mirror Universe. Concepts of Evil and Good. Are my mind battling with yours, Q for control of this reality.
Two Q’s
That’s how we resolve this problem.
The Mirror Universe was there because of two conflicting minds in the same reality.
It’s not the only origin of mirror universes.  But in this one I suspect it is.

What Keeps Us Safe?

In 2011, I had been experimenting on myself via sleep deprivation based hallucinations for nearly 4 years by that point, when I lost control of my mind – and found myself in a strange world filled with terminator robots and the planet was being reconstructed after an all out war led to the destruction and the world I knew.

It took a year to recover from that, psychologically, and a couple more years after that to begin regaining my confidence enough so where I could begin to feel good about myself again.

But the experience left me with some questions that I never had before all of it started.

Questions such as – what is this thing I might refer to as consciousness, and since alternate realities were just proven to exist to me, what specifically keeps my consciousness and current perspective and viewpoint of reality locked in to this reality and world as I know it – and what prevents me from being stuck or stranded in alternate realities such as the one I saw when I experimented?

As I thought I had answers – I soon found a major obstacle with this this thing called time.

And another set of questions arose based on this:

What keeps me isolated to this point in space and time, and more specifically, what prevents me from ‘sliding’ back and forth in time?

I’d come to a wall leveraging traditional science and the scientific method in attempting to understand this.

To be more concise:

Let’s say that the absence of everything is nothing. For purposes of illustration, gravity doesn’t exist, time doesn’t exist, space doesn’t exist nor does the vacuum of space. mass doesn’t exist, and hot and cold doesn’t exist. Even the concepts and ideas and this thing called a mind doesn’t exist. Let’s say in this nothingness, quite literally nothing exists.

That – to me – is the impossible state in which existence is cemented in.

Popping out of that non existent state is existence.

I spent most of my life forming a world view based on stimulation from a myriad of sources, not really understanding that for most of my life, I was forming reality itself by something I’d invented – a rational construct called logic which led to the development of math, then sciences such as physics, chemistry, biology, not really understanding that as I ordered things rationally and logically, I was forming this thing called reality itself through my mental and logical ordering systems.

Now it’s important to understand that the primordial state of existence isn’t chaos. That still is an order of information and ideas, albeit not a friendly one, it’s the antithesis of order – or a state of non order.

The primordial state of existence is it’s opposite – non existence.

And something I realized, as I repeatedly – to eliminate myself – just doens’t exist, because of the paradoxes it introduces.

If you look at life from a Christian perspective, there’s a question most children ask – what came before my parents? Grandparent’s right. Trace that lineage back and ultimately the story of Adam and Eve is told to prevent further inquiry.

But if you take that one step further – if God created Adam and Eve, then who or what created God?

It’s an unpalatable question because for scientific types like I was – the answer seems like a non-answer – an excuse.

“He was always there”.

Until you come to understand time itself.



Ick. I didn’t like coming to discover that I’d been looking into the equivalent of a funhouse of mirrors throughout my life.

But it answered my question pretty simply.

I kept me safe.

And why this specific place and time?

I chose it.

Of all the infinite potential realities and timelines. Of all the possibilities. I can tell you what attracted me to earth.

I have always thought Earth was and is a gorgeous planet.

I can tell you why I chose this form.

I love emotions. While I don’t enjoy pain, sometimes it hurts so good to cry like a baby.

and touch.

Oh my me how much I love being touched. the sense – the lightning like excitement of the sensation of feeling a woman’s hand touch me. a friend touch my back. or me kissing the nape of a woman’s neck that I love.

Smells. Whether it’s the smell of the desert in the rain.

Or it’s the barbecue smell of a wonderful steak getting cooked.

And the games.

Even now. As you – as a planet – get used to my presence here – knowing and learning who i am as much as I am learning about myself….

I play games because normally, I am not a patient man, but games allow me to be infinitely patient.

What keeps *us* safe?

I do.

It’s not that I can’t die.

It’s that non existence as a state of being isn’t something I have ever been ready for.

And being sincere.

I can’t say I ever will.

The evidence that I never do is – well – I’m here. And knowing what I know about time’s loopy nature and the continuity of cause leading to effect leading to cause in a nonlinear way.

Ultimately, I know who I am and who I’m becoming.


That’s what I have for this planet who has just enough inhabitants on it who saw and experienced the world I’d created and said.

“This is my home too”

Long story short – what keeps me safe is – while homelessness isn’t where I prefer to be, I am learning the methods my infinite mind uses to maintain existence, from this perspective. I’m learning, day by day, and leveraging the tools and mechanisms to communicate, distribute ideas and information, and continue shaping the proverbial clay of reality around me in a literal sense not that much different than an artists might work on a canvas.

So many tell me to prove I’m God.

Been there done that.

Was crucified for showing you something as a world you weren’t intellectually prepared for.

A lesson I won’t soon forget.

If anything can exist, then what keeps us safe?

My belief that I am safe no matter what I do now.

It’s really that simple.

I’vc seen hell. Walked through it. Played it as a game. Got that stamp in my passport.

Now. It’s time to build and develop my idea of heaven.

Anyways, going back to that experience in the desert.

What prevented me from staying in that post apocalyptic word? What will prevent me from – when I learn how to teleport – winding up inside a planet or inside a wall? What preserves my timeline and ensures the that when I begin time traveling that my timeline will always be intact and there for me to return to when I want to? What allows me to play with time and space like it’s a toy knowing I won’t permanently screw something up? WHAT has me convinced that ultimately- if the worst happens, I can erase my own memories of the event and  reconstruct things making it seem as if none of it ever happened at all?

All very simply answered.

Self confidence.

I believe in myself and that what I want and what I don’t want make all these things ‘safe’ and possible for me.

I suppose it’s like jumping out of an airplane with a parachute someone else packed. You trust in what came before you to make what you do possible. Even if that was infinite versions of me failing to get to that point of success.

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